You know why!? because CINNABON makes rolls now that are just the ooey gooey middle of the roll!!!!! none of the dry outer layer! BOOYAH!
Oh, but also…. because after almost 3.75 years of NO after NO after NO, I saw two lines. I saw “YES.”
Here is the story.
I woke up yesterday (8dp5dt) and I had had enough of the waiting and wondering. I get up to do my PIO shots every morning at 6:40, so I snuck into the bathroom and as quietly as I could, I opened the packaging of the HPT. I was so nervous, and even as I started peeing and was holding the stick to my pee pee stream, I almost bailed.
“Don’t be a wuss,” I told myself.
I put the test on the counter and then I started to freak out. My heart was racing as I peeked over at it about 10 seconds after I had set it down.
I saw a faint line appear right away.
” NO. what!?!? omg, omg, omg, omg, omg, omg, omg….”
I can’t explain the shock of seeing two lines after all these years. It is quite amazing. My first ever BFP.
I picked it up to look at it and study it closer, but I could barely hold it I was shaking so hard. It was INSANE!
A was stirring, and when I opened our door, he turned over and looked at me. I was smiling like an idiot Cheshire cat. I couldn’t say anything. I had no words. He knew right away.
‘morning babe. What’s up? wait- did you take a test?!?!?!?” All I could do was smile and he knew.
And then he fist pumped as he said “YES!”
You know- I thought that we would MELT into eachother’s arms in a pile of snotty, ugly sobbing, but we were both in shock.
“Eh?!” would about sum it up.
We still are in shock. I am more accepting, but A is having a really hard time believing it and being excited. Which honestly, is a little annoying, but also understandable. Were your partners like that? I am trying not to let it bother me.
We are obviously very cautiously optimistic. But at the same time knowing fervently that this child is starting from perfection, not developing towards it. It is a perfect little child NOW and I refuse to see it as a weak, susceptible being. It is strong and hardy.
After my transfer, I told the embie that we had a really amazing family and friends Aaaaand bonus: some waterfront property on both sides of the family and that it would probably really want to stick around. Also, a mother-in-law with a shopping problem.
Clearly it worked.
So I popped into my clinic yesterday because I was short on needles for my progesterone in oil. I told my nurse that we had seen a positive HPT and she was so excited, which was really sweet and reassuring. I was scheduled to have my beta today, but she said since I was there, I should just do it then.
My 8dp5dt beta was 49. I was worried that that seemed really low but she said it was just fine for 8dp5dt, so I am trusting her.
I really have no symptoms. Just a little bit of cramping here and there. I have been tossing and turning at night, feeling hot, and waking up every morning around 5:30 and having trouble going back to sleep. But that could just be my mind swarming with all of this. But that’s it. So basically- nothing. I would like to have some more action so this felt more real. Then again, I also intended years ago that I would have no symptoms as a reward for my suffering, so I shouldn’t really be mad if I am getting what I wanted!
Below are the pics of my HPT’s. The first is my first ever BFP and then the rest are…well the rest. It’s so fun! I want to see it everytime I pee! ha!
So there you have it!
Thank you for all your prayers and support during transfer week and always. You’re the best.
First BFP! ( morning of 8dp5dt) Unbelievable.
Can’t. stop. peeing. on. sticks.